Busy plans!

I am going to be very busy this week.

I am going to Lubbock to help Shane move things in moving van and help mom take care of Stephanie when she get her surgery shots.

I probably come home monday night or tuesday. On Wednesday i have college thing to go.

On Thursday my parents and i are leaving for a vacation in Colorado, Finally! i will come home on sunday
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bad news, my bedroom isn't finished! i don't have office yet! i am seriously stressed out and it made me have horrible headaches. It made me more depressed and tired. i have lost all my happiness and hope. I really wish mom asked a show called "while you were out" to come and give my room and office a home makeover. But that will never happen.

Deaf church is on camping trip so i didn't get to talk to my pastor or give him my letter.

on colorado i will be going to SPA and get makeover. Mom hoped it would help me feel better. We will see.


i really wish we finished my room and the office but things get in way.

i cleaned out my closet and half of them are left.

i need lot of things but i don't have money. My dad cares about his money so i am scared to ask him and my mom, she wasted more than $200 on my room so i don't want to bother her. i don't know what to do.

List of things that I want to get it ready for college.

* Bedroom done like a dorm, I bet it will never be done.

• turn Shane’s old bedroom into my office, it was mom’s idea. I wanted to do this way like you see in picture but mom doesn’t think its good idea.

• relax time like SPA

• Call Brenda and tell her what class I want to take, mom kept forgetting to give me her phone number or email address, every time I asked for it she said she will find it tomorrow.

• New clothes, shoes, and things

• New hair style

• New makeup, I wanted mineral but mom said its lot of money and I know she will use it all.

• Notebook laptop be ready, which we are having problems with programs

• PDA (my cell phone) needed to be fixed.

• Buy college stuff


Things I need for my bedroom

*A twin size bed, like my parents have. I can’t have Shane’s bed because its too big for my room, there will not be enough room for me to walk around.

• two or a big drawers, my old one have mold so mom throw it out. Now I have my things in a box.
• Two side bed tables for my alarm clock and lamps.
• New floor like carpet or tiles
• Mirror door for my closet
• New organizers for my closet to make more room
• A small desk for homework if needed
• 2 new windows because one is broke.
• Rug(s)
• Lamp(s)
• Glow in dark stuff like glow in dark rug, glow in dark stars, and other.
• A table for my TV
• New sheets
• New pillows for décor
• New blanket
• New comforter
• 2 curtain for windows and maybe a curtain for bed
• A small shelf for my perfuse, makeup, and jewelry boxes.
• If I have enough room maybe a small couch.

See how stressed out am i? I don’t know what to do. I am thinking about starting to write a book about my life but I have a horrible memory so my mom will help me. I want to do what Helen Keller did, she wrote books and travel over world speaking with people about her life and how amazing god is.

I am always doing what people told me to do, I wan to do things for myself but I don’t have money or my parents don’t finish it. I have tried to talk to mom but she was like ”Don’t worry about that” then she gets angry.


I do’t know what to do, I seriously want to move out of the house and get an apartment or a small house so I can do things on my own and get them done. But I need a driver and someone to teach me how to cook. I can’t live with my parents; them aren’t helping my stress at all. They tell me what to do and what not to do. I can’t have friends over without their permission, I can’t go out with their permission, I can’t get things I want without their permission or questioning, I don’t feel like I am independent. I got in lot of arguments with my mom all the times and I just want to run away. I love my family but I am a woman and I need to get out and be on my own.

I have so many sores on my tongue, left side. I have tried many different medications on them but it don’t work, It just got worse so that I can’t eat chips or hard foods anymore, it hurt to eat and drink. It hurt even more to talk with my voice. My dentist looked at it last month and said she have no idea how to fix it but she gave me a medication to try, it didn’t work. I don’t know what to do.

I need to pack, I like to pack the night before I go somewhere but my mom like to wait until the morning to pack, it is not fun packing in the morning with dad telling us to hurry. Last time I packed things in the morning I ended up forgot many things.

My parents are an amazing parents, I really love them so much. They saved my life so many times and paid for my health but it is not easy to live with them because they treat me like a baby and now they are treating me half baby half adult which make lot of stress.

i didn’t pass my Accplacer Placement for Amarillo College, so I had to take a class at AC for summer so I went but them things got worse so I dropped out. But I will be going to college in fall, which is in 2 weeks.

My good friend, Echo, have MRSA. My brother and sister in law and some of her family got sick because of water in Whiteoak, it have bacteria. There is something wrong with my aunt Debbie but we don’t know what it is, so wait and see what test say.

I just want to get away from everything so hopefully Colorado vacation will help.